She who lost her wings

what happens to the angel who stepped down to the firey hell to be with the devil she loved only to find he was with another devil and didn’t want her anymore?

She lost her dignity, her self esteem, her heart, her soul...

She pretends she’s happy, she’s content...

She lived long that way.. no need approvals, no need of friends, no need of soulmates, she was content being her... the girl with too many names

Until one day.. until that day.. she met him... let her guard down, showed her vulnerability... only to find out he didnt want her for life, he need her not for a lifetime of companionship.... he just wanted a time pass...

Wasn’t his fault... she sold herself so low... she forgot she was an angel.

Nothing is ever what it seems like

Don't go, she whispered... he ignored her

please stay, she pleaded... he turned a deaf ear

I'll give you the world, she bargained... he kept walking

She thought she was gonna die

yet she stayed alive

breathing and living she found strength

until one day she saw him

self destructive and dying

she walked close

y, she asked

u were my oxygen, he said

y leave then?

u'd never understand my dear, but u r living coz i walked away...

-RandoMind-

Higher education doesn't always mean a better character

didn't think i'd say this but high education (and money) does not always mean a good character..

Today as i was driving home, a black BMW was in front of me and it just went ahead even though it was red. I thought that was annoying and selfish, my ignorance lead me to believe maybe it was the driver doing so and prob in a hurry to pick up his master.

as the red turned green i went ahead and it just happened that the same black BMW was to my left and i could see from his see through glass that the driver of that BMW was a good looking young man in a fancy shirt with cufflinks (i think) talking on the phone and laughing, having a good time.

My stomach curned. I felt nauseous. All this while i hated and cursed metromini drivers and bajaj drivers for not following rules and doing what they like and i thought perhaps it has something to do with low education. But today that theory was proved wrong.

Even rich educated people are ignorant and selfish... which jz lead me to believe high education doesn't always lead to a better character. People have grown so distant, ignorant, selfish and egocentric. We lost the love and care....

Rain of Stars

Lluvia De Estrellas

by Terri Hendrik

Lluvia de Estrellas (Rain of Stars)

en mi corrazon esta noche

(in my heart tonight)

Lluvia de Estrellas (Rain of Stars)

en mi alma en mi vida esta noche

(in my soul in my life tonight)

In Boquillas the sun sets around us

as we sing and play to the moon

the children's big brown eyes

light up the foothills of the mountain-side

everybody sings in harmony to the tune

Un brincador de montaöas

(a jumper of mountains)

en mi alma (in my soul)

is who you are to me

Un brincador de montaöas

(a jumper of mountains)

en mi vida (in my life)

atravez del cielo (across the sky)

when I choose to see

Are We Worth Less Than Fast Food?

We live in a weird country!! Where ambulances r not given way on the road while a funeral car with its covey r given ways and could get through red lights and all.. seems like ppl here don't understand that 'HEAVEN CAN WAIT!! HUMAN LIFE DEPENDS ON THE GOLDEN HOUR AFTER TRAUMA/EXPOSURE'

Oh an another funny fact... Fast foods are available 24 hours and dropped within 30 minutes to wherever u are, but ambulances takes more than an hour... just shows that our lives in this country are cheaper than food :D

(quoting words of Prof. dr. Aryono D. Pusponegoro SpBD-KVB, SpOT)

SERIOUSLY!!

Ain't Worried About Tomorrow When You're Busy Living In A Perfect Day

Been listening to Lady Antebellum's 'Perfect Day' and i got to think and reminisce about the perfect days i had... where there was no worry about tomorrow and just living in that perfect day..

1. The latest was on Sunday at 365 eco bar.. good music good friends, had one too much to drink, but it aint matter coz it was a PERRFECT DAY..

2. Then the Friday before that Sunday... @ Domain, DJ Noodles playing the set. Had enough to drink and had me dancing till morning.. aint matter that i had work the next morning, it was a PERFECT DAY

3. The Tuesday before that Friday.. Melly's and Jaksa.. an intelligent yet drunken conversation with an interesting friend until the morning sun came out. Had work and had too much to drink, it aint matter coz it was a PERFECT DAY

4. Monday, which comes before Tuesday (which we all know no thanks to Rebecca Black :p) @ Melly's, The beer tasted better with the company of dearest sister and an important friend. No worries about tommorow jz having a PERFECT DAY

(i realized all 4 that i had written were PERFECT DAYS filled with BOOZE... jz to be clear, i'm not an alcoholic :D)

5. Easter Sunday, playing anthakshari (indian songs game) with dearest sisters and followed by parents joining along all night (an exaggeration).. works piling up for tomorrow n a long day too aint matter coz it was a PERFECT DAY

6. Night before Easter, Easter dinner with close friends and Radio Dept concert (which i get to go to the backstage of sm sort, thanks to HANNAH :D).. PERFECT DAY

7. Good Friday, Birthday dinner for a dear friend, buying a 'power ranger' birthday cake and followed by beers at jaksa.. oh and meeting a best friend who came back in town after months :)))) beer tasted better than ever! and a ride home with catching up conversation... tomorrow aint matter coz it was a PERFECT DAY! :D

8. The beers at cho gao and the party at crown on a holiday in Melb, ending up on the couch at a fren's.. no worries of tomorrow, it was a PERFECT DAY

9. Road Trip to GReat Ocean ROad... aint matter we aint got no enough sleep the night before.. it was a PERFECT DAY

10. A late start on a saturday, lunch with friends, a lazy day at the rose garden, dinner at the spanish resto with yummy spanish food and sangria, a garage party we found on the way... and the moment i met u! asking u to open my corona...

Aint matter of anything else... IT WAS A PERFECT DAY :)))))

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It was the perfect day

What I'd give if I could find a way to stay

lost in this moment now

Ain't worried about tomorrow when you're busy living in a perfect day.

-Lady Antebellum-

The reason for a reason

God sent down His only Son to earth to wipe off all of our sin... That's what the bible tells us.. but i think there is another reason He sent Jesus to this earth as human.

When i was a little kid, not knowing what love or rejection is, i can never understand completely the stories, novels, comics that i read... especially all those about love and jealousy. What the hell is jealousy? is it that powerful that it leads people into dark rage and not seldom commit crimes? i used to naively think that those novels just exaggerate those feelings. Or the feeling to die for someone u love... duh! who wud wanna be that stupid?

until i myself endure love, pain of losing and jealousy, i could never understand those stories. But once i went through those emotions myself, right then i understood those stories and i felt them.

I think God is like me. He created people with emotions, but He Himself had no emotions... how could He? He's s'pose to be non-judgmental and ever loving and ever so fair. So He couldn't understand why humans could do bad things such as killing or stealing or hurting others.

He realizes although He had created humans as a mirror image of Him, they had a flaw... they have emotions, which He didn't plan on but just exist.

Actually He really didn't plan on giving humans emotions, but when He created Eve for Adam, He let the emotion grew in those two. And from that on the emotion grew and created other emotions...

God on the other hand was and is always alone, so He never developed emotions and thus can never understand human completely... and if He can't understand them, how is He to be non judgmental and all fair?

So He created (perhaps?) and sent His most precious person... His SON... Jesus on earth.. to suffer...

And when He watched His Son tortured and murdered, only then He knew of the existence of this so called emotions... and only then did He know of pain and only then did He understand...